Q

i am declaring a quest
well its been unofficial for a long time now
but im going to try to put words to it

question
1250–1300;  (noun) Middle English questio ( u ) n, questiun  < Anglo-French questiun, Middle French question  < Latin quaestiōn-  (stem ofquaestiō ), equivalent to quaes-,  stem of quaerere  to ask + -tiōn- -tion;(v.) late Middle English  < Middle French questioner,  derivative of thenoun

quest
1275–1325;  (noun) Middle English queste  < Old French  < Latinquaesīta,  feminine past participle of quaerere  to seek; (v.) MiddleEnglish questen  < Old French quester,  derivative of the noun

to seek, to ask

i am looking for the place where narrative comes apart
where it breaks down to speak as
so it were a machine

there are narrative machines after all
it isnt enough to put a machine system in the
hands of the proletariat
if you dont have stories

neither here & there
so wait
gathering thoughts

ok
im looking for the place where narrative breaks down
using language
which how
they say fighting for peace is screwing for virginity

so im going to fuck my way to a immaculate conception
only probably
not so immaculate
because where does narrative break down

but in the messiest places
where youre oh shit what is that?
when paradigm goes into crisis
where excession blows through
sorry was that your civilization
i thought someone was building sandcastles

casual autumn leaves
sorry was that your worldview
i thought someone was talking in their sleep

so twisting up gears until break
& maybe

more foresighted
folks will have
alter
natives waiting
when were done

cold from our work & wanting hot cocoa

yours for the revolution
forbidden books

helping hand

when you make
hamburger helper
or any such boxed beef food product
with turkey
instead of beef
& forget the flavor packet

& then you try to eat it
but it ends up smelling
like canned dog food

you gag &
gotta wonder

what corners they cut
to feed us

yours for the revolution
forbidden books

i stand only to say i have nothing to say at all

as someone interested in radicalism language sexuality
shit who isnt
interested in sexuality i mean
well we should be interested in all those things
together

i thought alot about lgbtq how it got where it is
when it got where it is
what the orders mean
could mean if switched around
the importance of placement
indices of arrangement

so before i started writing
i did what any cis radical
worth salt should do
i wikid it

oh jesus im out of my league

but theres so much good stuff
i wont stop reading but im not gonna open
my stupid mouth where
it doesnt understand

ill let
better
more experienced minds
do the talking

consider this a nudge thata ways
instead

yours for the revolution
forbidden books

ps i smiled at the name of this magazine

pps i did manage to find myself in the alphabet soup
i like that the struggle has produced places
even someone privileged as me
can fit into once theyve started
unpacking the ideas and fighting
internalized oppression/oppressordom
ugh ... tangled thoughts
more on that later probably

"gone gear-queer"

"Young men who dress to feel they'll be mistaken for having special capability. A species of cosplay, really. Endemic. Lots of boys are playing soldier now. The men who run the world aren't, and neither are the boys most effectively bent on running it next. Or the ones who're actually having to be soldiers, of course. But many of the rest have gone gear-queer, to one extent or another.... The military, if you think about it, largely invented branding. The whole idea of being 'in uniform.' The global fashion industry is based on that."
- huburtus bigend, Zero History by william gibson

forever smile for the camera

fig1a: martial fashion

you wont see this on a paris runway any time soon

well

probably not

there are few depths to which corporations wont sink to turn your head

so anyway
this photo causes a stir
probably mostly in the media if at all in the usa
but maybe with the public in france
who knows im not french
this french general has de gall to say
something along the lines of

this isnt indicative of the french intervention in mali

because
you know
war is an industry
its spokespeople
are all

pr

promise
every time you hear a talking head
talking bout some conflict
humanitarian intervention
successfully blown up brown folks alleged terrorist baby eaters
remote controlled precision slaughter

youre being sold something
an image a paradigm
a narrative
its like a commercial

root commerce
well
you know better than to believe that
right

mister african soldier worker shame on you
for covering your face with the true face of your profession
revealing
apocalyptizing
frances efforts for what it really is
a white mans war
paving space for capital

we dont pay you to showcase truth

!

kill something already

yours for the revolution
forbidden books